Raindrops (an original song)//posting 3 years later

Опубликовано: 15 Март 2025
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Finally posting this as public after 3-4 years.
This was filmed and posted during my addiction and during a huge life change. Hope you guys enjoy it-it’s crazy to see how much happier I am now.

Taking a lot for me to post this bc I don’t normally share my original songs-but I wrote this in July and it kinda still hits me. Sorry I can’t sing fantastic-I fucking tried. This is on unlisted and posted in a very select few places; so if you’re one of the few to watch-thank you.

I wrote this shortly after my break up with my fiancé. It’s about how I had to start a new life and I wasn’t sure about it and I was really scared. I questioned my life decisions at the time and wondered if I was doing the right thing, and wondered if I should stop doing what I was doing and go back to my old ways. But I realized along the way that it was for the better. I’ve grown, I’ve changed, I’m a completely different human now. None of that would’ve happened if I wouldnt’ve kicked that fucking door down and lived the life I chose. Never back down, never stop fighting and kick down as many fucking doors as you need to to be happy.

Lyrics:

Raindrops fallin on my head
I realize I’m not dead yet
Third eye openin wide now
Blurry but I see clear- maybe
Stay longer than you have been
It’s been a while since my last friend

I’m scared
And I’m sad
I don’t get it
Should I quit it
I’m lost and I’m hopeless
But I’m still alive
I’m tryin
Even if I feels like I I’m dyin I’m not

Fears are reality
When I close my eyes
Runnin from the monsters
Inside of my mind
Past is catchin up now
Got no where to hide

I’m scared
And I’m sad
I don’t get it
Should I quit it
I’m lost and I’m hopeless
But I’m still alive
I’m trying
Even if I feels like I I’m dyin I’m not

One door opens
Another must close
So kick the fuckin door down
And live the life you chose
The past is all behind you
The futures where to go

I’m scared
And I’m sad
I don’t get it
Should I quit it
I’m lost and I’m hopeless
But I’m still alive
I’m tryin
Even if I feels like I I’m dyin I’m not